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May through June, 1999

  Visitor: lee magness
Reference: a friend
 Location: oxford
 Web Info: 
     Date: Tuesday, Jun 29, 1999 at 07:49:43 (EDT)
Comments: one of the first things i saw was about words. ons time i had this to share with a friend. WORDS ARE AS THE WINDS. YOU CAN'T SEE THEM BUT YOU SEE WHAT THEY DO...... The one behind the eyes i know i am wolf....... great spirit and wolf are the great teacher of my people. only spirit of wolf can carry my people in to the furture......
  Visitor: Betsy Kendrick
Reference: Netscape search
 Location: Georgia
 Web Info: 
     Date: Tuesday, Jun 29, 1999 at 00:09:51 (EDT)
Comments: This page is excellent & I am so fortunate I found it. Thankyou for sharing everything with us. I love Native American Culture, & have wolf-hybrids. This site touched my heart. It has such a personal touch & many varied topics all together. I, too, believe if human families were more like the wolf family's...we would be much better people. We can learn from their wisdom.
  Visitor: Tiffs
Reference: refered by you 8*)
 Location: North Carolina
  WebSite: Tiffanys' Labyrinth
 Web Info: Original poems and stories by abuse survivor, favorite 
quotes, various and sundry things. Contact: Date: Sat, Jun 26, 1999 at 22:25:06 (EDT)
Comments: Wow, GW, you've been busy since we last visited your page. I had never seen your drawings before. You are a very multitalented artist!!! From what I know about you, I really like the person that you have become. Am sorry that you had to go through all that crap to get here though. If it helps to know, you help me get through each day, even though you're not aware of it. Thanks for your courage. Thanks for *you!*
  Visitor: Skip Best - Jerry Lee Lewis's Uncle & Webmaster
Reference: A WebRing Award Site
 Location: Memphis, TN
 Web Info: A website dedicated to The Killer with souvenirs; 
pictures; concert information & more! Contact: Date: Sat, Jun 26, 1999 at 12:49:41 (EDT)
Comments: WOW! This is a very powerful, moving website!!! Thanks for sharing and wishing you a happy, prosperous life!
  Visitor: Charles Sullivan
Reference: Search of Native American Sites
 Location: Planet Earth, North American Continent; Eastern 
mixed mesophytic forest; Potomac Highlands; Potomac River
Drainage--Hedgesville, West Virginia WebSite: Web Info: Contact: Date: Wed, Jun 23, 1999 at 11:27:17 (EDT)
Comments: You have a wonderful web site, my friend. Many thanks for sharing the deepest secrets of your heart and soul with us. You have a beautiful spirit. May you find your way to the Sacred Path and find your way to perfect contentment. I especially like your poems.
  Visitor: Bonnie
Reference: link
 Location: Boston,ma
  WebSite: Poetry fo the Soul
 Web Info: poetry from abusers
     Date: Wed, Jun 23, 1999 at 01:04:02 (EDT)
Comments: Not sure if you got my letter and not sure if this is working. didn't last time.; but I though I would try one last time. :-) Very brave of you to put your story out there. I am so glad you are here to help other's I had some questions also but not sure if I should ask. I am a survivor too and have a site with poetry from my self and others. It really does help get our mixed feelings out. I may try a story one someday. In the meantime, can I link to yours? Thanks for your bravery and GodBless~~
  Visitor: Sno
Reference: Surfing
 Location: Sierra Nevada
  WebSite: MindCraft... The Anthology Of The Human Spirit
 Web Info: Dedicated to the survivorship of all who have 
suffered atrocities. Contact: Date: Mon, Jun 21, 1999 at 15:39:38 (EDT)
Comments: Great webpage Ghostwolf!!! I too, am a survivor of abuse of all kinds and am in tune with the spiritual nature of being part Cherokee. A Cherokee medicine man gave me the name SnoFeather about a decade ago and was a great friend of mine who gave me strength when I began to retrieve memories of physical, sexual, psychological, and ritual abuse. Although he has since passed away, I still carry the gift of hope and strength which he taught me. Kudos to your page and the gifts you give to those who happen to cross your path to survivorship.
  Visitor: Debbie
Reference: browsing
 Location: NewYork
 Web Info: 
     Date: Mon, Jun 21, 1999 at 14:03:42 (EDT)
Comments: I tried to email you but its not working.Did your mom get custody of your brothers and sisters?Why didnt your grandparents get custody of them?Do you keep intouch with Peggy?How is she doing?Why didnt you ,Peggy and your bothers and sisters run away from home?Did your mom get custody of your brothers,why? My mom said that I might have been abused,but I only remember what she has told me.There were two times when I was little,the first time I was 1 or 2 years old.When my mom picked me up from a babysitters house she found bruises on my butt. The second time was when I spent the night at my friends' house.Her brother and his friend told us to take our clothes off.I dont know if anything happened.
  Visitor: Sandra
Reference: browsing through the computer
 Location: Plano Texas born in houston and 16 years old
  WebSite: cant give it out
 Web Info: dont have one sorry
  Contact: cant give it out
     Date: Fri, Jun 18, 1999 at 17:40:07 (EDT)
Comments: Wonderful drawings you have helped me survive my abuse thank you so much and may God bless you and your family thank you
  Visitor: A girl in the middle
Reference: referred by search
 Location: Spain
  WebSite: don't have one
 Web Info: 
     Date: Tuesday, Jun 15, 1999 at 11:20:53 (EDT)
Comments: Congratulations, you have been to hell and back. I don't think it's very easy to hold on to a belief when everything around you shatters, crushes your shell and leaves you out in the cold. I certainly have nothing left to believe in but myself and those who chose to walk my way. I think you have come to the same realization. You have inmense strength and it has certainly helped me fuel mine up.
  Visitor: red--
Reference: pure accident 
 Location: oregon
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: none
  Contact: none
     Date: Sat, Jun 12, 1999 at 21:58:06 (EDT)
Comments: Hi ghostwolf not sure if you remember me but i will take the chance! hope all is well and i like your site! tell everyone hi and i am doing ok :) red--
  Visitor: Kelly and Scott Huls
Reference: through the back door
 Location: Astoria, OR
  WebSite: we're Newbies, aaahhh!!!!
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sat, Jun 12, 1999 at 03:32:00 (EDT)
Comments: We are interested in info. on the Blackfoot and Cherokee, if you know any good sites. My husband is registered Cherokee with a mix of German and Scottish, and I'm a mutt with a little Blackfoot in my veins. Thank you for your homepage. It is informative and thought provoking. Good luck in life to you and yours.
  Visitor: Shot Gun
Reference: Revolutionary Cafe
 Location: Canada
  WebSite: iNFOx Helter Skelter -- Magazine of the New Wave
 Web Info: Pro-thought, freedom site dedicated to fighting apathy.
     Date: Thurs, Jun 10, 1999 at 22:07:54 (EDT)
Comments: ... the man at the cafe was right... this is one of the most moving, and beautifully made and kept sites I have ever come across... I wish I had the intellect and experience to convey, with my heart, all that I mean...
  Visitor: JD
Reference: Surfing for ritual abuse resources
 Location: New York City
  WebSite: -
 Web Info: -
  Contact: -
     Date: Fri, Jun 04, 1999 at 13:51:47 (EDT)
Comments: Dear Ghostwolf: I have been recovering memories of ritual abuse for the past three years. Recently I've been feeling especially traumatized and afraid, as I've become aware how rampant and pervasive this type of abuse, especially here in New York. Occult shops here sell knives and human heads, and no one looks twice. Public denial is so massive, sites like yours are instrumental in educating the public on the horrors and danger of ignorance and denial. To survive the horrors originally, and then to surmount the triggers and programming and survive the memories is such an amazing feat, you are an inspiration to my healing. I have a long road to ahead of me in the healing process and often think suicide is an option, but your testament assures me it is not the only option. I thank you again.
  Visitor: Stutley
Reference: So long ago now....
 Location: CA
  WebSite: Australians in America
 Web Info: A resource for Australians living in America
     Date: Wed, Jun 02, 1999 at 03:40:45 (EDT)
Comments: Great to see you again GhostWolf, and thank you for your continued work on these pages. *hugs* to you and Mou, Shane and Lisa :)
  Visitor: owl
Reference: been here quite a few times.....
 Location: WA state
 Web Info: 
     Date: Mon, May 31, 1999 at 05:36:22 (EDT)
Comments: hey there: just stopped by to see if you had anything new..... hope all's well with you. blessed be, owl
  Visitor: Rich Ghost Wolf
Reference: Yours is named like mine.
 Location: Everywhen.
  WebSite: Ghostwolf
 Web Info: It just is. 
     Date: Sun, May 30, 1999 at 23:41:26 (EDT)
Comments: Hi. It's interesting, you...we are similar. I've only encountered one other Ghostwolf in my life, and he had the same things happen that you did...and I did. Something happened, though. Maybe a reaction to it? I don't know... but it's a sensitivity, an awareness, like being awake inside of awake. Perhaps it's the cosmic balance swinging our way; no matter what pain we're given, pain does not last, for nature and the cosmos abhor an imbalance. Perhaps those of us abused and cast down are given gifts to comfort us; a deeper awareness, a sharper sense of being...? These things given us to protect others, of course, but it feels like far more than that...
  Visitor: Alison
Reference: had to do a report on child abuse
 Location: california
  WebSite: i don't have one
 Web Info: 
     Date: Wed, May 26, 1999 at 13:48:20 (EDT)
Comments: Thank you for the opportunity to read your site, it touched me in ways you'll never know.
  Visitor: Carrie Johnson
Reference: I've known you for like forever :-) 
 Location: Soon to be Bellevue, NE (4 now, MPLS)
 Web Info: 
     Date: Tuesday, May 25, 1999 at 17:18:21 (EDT)
Comments: I just wanted to say hello and recheck your site...see what you've been up to. It's been a long time my friend. I hope you are well. Please say hello to Mou for me and anyone else who might care :-). I think of you every once in awhile and ask the universe to hold you in it's care. In that way, you continue to touch my heart even when I haven't seen you recently. Many blessings to you my friend!
  Visitor: Paula
Reference: From Tahoepru
 Location: Michigan, USA
  WebSite: Paula's Banner World
 Web Info: Get your banner here, or post your banner here.
     Date: Sat, May 22, 1999 at 16:51:17 (EDT)
You have such a story to tell, it has nearly brought tears to my eyes. It has taken me quite a few visits to get through your whole site, and I still find things here that I missed the last visit. I hope that through all of your pain and endurance you have suffered that the site you have put together will help a great many people.
I have so much respect for you for publishing this site to the web, in hopes that others will prevail. I can imagine it is also still a way of getting through your past. I know several years have past, but it must still have left a scar with you to live with forever. I am glad that you have such wonderful people in your life now. You most certainly deserve that. I also hope that this site never causes you any further grief. Thank you for sharing your life....I has definitely made an impact on me.
I pray for you all the best in your world for the rest of your life, you are entitled to that.
Take care, and thanks for stopping by my site and for the comments you have left. Visit again any time

  Visitor: LON
Reference: NET SURFING
 Location: ILLINOIS
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 21, 1999 at 03:10:55 (EDT)
  Visitor: Toni
Reference: Another lover of the Wolf
 Location: Nevada
  WebSite: Tahoe's Spirits
 Web Info: My site is about wolves, their place on this earth, 
and how I can help to preserve and protect them, along with my
own hands-on experiences. It's grown to more than that... Contact: Date: Tuesday, May 18, 1999 at 03:27:24 (EDT)
Comments: Hi Wolfie...I just had to stop in and tell you how great your pages are looking. Please stop by my site and take a look. Your surprise is waiting there for you...Love~Toni

  Visitor: Skip (Eaglesnest)
Reference: a cyber friend
 Location: Louisiana
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sun, May 16, 1999 at 20:41:00 (EDT)
Comments: Reading your message raised much hope. There are many who do not hear the voice of the one who have been abused, especially of the Cherokee children. Though I am only part Cherokee, I hear the voices of the weak ones crying out to the sky above them for someone to at least hear them. Thank you for offering a beautiful site that carries hope for those who feel they are forgotten. May the Mother Earth be kind to your fields of beauty and hope.
  Visitor: Saundra
Reference: Surfing
 Location: Ohio
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sat, May 15, 1999 at 00:02:07 (EDT)
Comments: I can relate to your shape shifting last name means wolf in hungarian.....i hope you are seeing the better sideof life since the time when the poem was conceived. Middle age is tough, tough, tough, tough (rolling stones). Even for those who are not victims of abuse, life is a grave challenge in middle age. It gets better if only because we become inured and when amends have been made for the mistakes of our youth be they what they may, one can rest on ones laurels, so to speak....thank you for the wolf dream...sf
  Visitor: linda owens
Reference: I was looking up about the Melungeons
 Location: Lexington, ky
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 14, 1999 at 16:50:28 (EDT)
Comments: I found your site very imformative. I have always been interested in American History. I think I may be a Melungeon descendant. I am currently lookin into this.
  Visitor: linda owens
Reference: I was looking up about the Melungeons
 Location: Lexington, ky
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 14, 1999 at 16:49:28 (EDT)
Comments: I found your site very imformative. I have always been interested in American History. I think I may be a Melungeon descendant. I am currently lookin into this.
  Visitor: linda owens
Reference: I was looking up about the Melungeons
 Location: Lexington, ky
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 14, 1999 at 16:48:28 (EDT)
Comments: I found your site very imformative. I have always been interested in American History. I think I may be a Melungeon descendant. I am currently lookin into this.
  Visitor: Cheryl Blue
Reference: Friend
 Location: Oklahoma
  WebSite: none yet
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 14, 1999 at 16:27:10 (EDT)
Comments: Lost a good friend to this same kind of thing. They left her alone for a few years, just long enough for her to begin to feel she could live in peace. Her husband is a wonderful man who will safegaurd her children for as long as there is breath in him. I miss her so. Your site helped me to understand her terror and why she chose to give up,So her children could be free.
  Visitor: Umm.... call me chicken
 Location: NY
 Web Info: 
     Date: Thurs, May 13, 1999 at 09:34:30 (EDT)
Comments: Above is url by which I found your link.
  Visitor: Umm.. call me chicken
Reference: via male survivors links
 Location: NY
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: none
     Date: Thurs, May 13, 1999 at 01:23:28 (EDT)
Comments: Very touching ... found your site today; surviving such a horrific legacy of abuse I find virtually impossible, but for your presence and web site here. I am overwhelmed at merely considering the amount of courage, strength and brute (is there a better word?) determination, against all the odds you've faced so alone, you had to not only survive, but also to finally enjoy life. I have no such agonizing history, just relatively minor abuse. But, I find, rather surprisingly, some empathy in some of the mental and emotional processes you've so eloquently put into words. I am still trying to sort out my mental confusion - I've only just begun to peer into my own dark abyss - but I thank you for sharing so much of your history publicly. I haven't read your entire site yet, but I look forward to keeping up with it. Wishing you much continued strength, courage, and affection.
  Visitor: Abby
Reference: Tahoepru
 Location: Utah
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sun, May 09, 1999 at 00:48:40 (EDT)
Comments: Very interesting.
  Visitor: Shelayla
Reference: been here before
 Location: Fargo, N.D. originally
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sat, May 08, 1999 at 22:45:45 (EDT)
Comments: okay..I've already signed your guestbook. I wish I had waited till I read your biography first. Now I know what the people in my expressive writing class 9 years ago felt when they said to me wow..did that REALLY happen?...and perhaps you feel the same way and respond with a shrug..yeah, what's so hard to believe? it was my life but now i know their amazement and disgust and sympathy. It took me hours to read your biography. I'm not a slow reader in fact I'm a life long bookworm. I had to keep stopping to cry , or leave the page , or binge eat (coping skill). I wanted to stop reading, yet I couldn't because I feel your story needed to be heard again and again. You need to publish your story. You tell a story exceptionally well. (from one former writer to another) If I ever see you in person (which I doubt) I will bring you huge bunche of bananas with the bananas still in them and grill you steaks and feed you till you burst. That poor little boy you were...those pictures ofyou. I think of my daughter ..nearly 2 years old and ..god.. I don't get it. How they could do this to us without any care or feeling. I've gotten mad at her but I remove myself from her or I distract us both. I DON'T GET IT AND I'M SO DAMN MAD AT THEM. I'm crying now , i've been crying for hours. I sense that you are at your place in healing that I am after long years of holding it in. You've let it out as have I. Pedophiles say they love children, they lie..they only love themselves. they are selfish evil people. I better stop i'm taking up a whole page...whew...Peace Light Love Hope
  Visitor: Shelayla
Reference: you told me about it ..i think? :)
 Location: Fargo north dakota mostly
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sat, May 08, 1999 at 19:33:58 (EDT)
Comments: I still have to look around a bit more but I love the graphics :) I think what you are trying to do for fellow survivors is great.
  Visitor: Quimera
Reference: previous
 Web Info: 
     Date: Fri, May 07, 1999 at 20:43:25 (EDT)
Comments: Nice to see an old friend is doing so well. God Bless. Quimera.
  Visitor: Christina
Reference: truthfully I don't know, I was just reading and there 
you were! Location: You know Oklahoma?Right? WebSite: Christina's Castle Web Info: I think you would like the memorial page I made for
my brother, but I have fairys,dragons, dedications, Robert Frost,
original poems of love I wrote, lots of things Contact: Date: Thurs, May 06, 1999 at 23:31:14 (EDT)
Comments: You have no idea, how I cried, when I read your story!! It absolutely broke my heart! But we do go on! Who was it that said, that which does not kill us, makes us stronger Well, YOU must have the strength of ten! Much love and peace to you in your life!
  Visitor: Tania Diotalevi-Hodges
Reference: My guestbook
 Location: Calgary, Alberta (Stampede City)
  WebSite: Talisart Images
 Web Info: Outstanding artwork by award-winning Metis illustrator
     Date: Wed, May 05, 1999 at 13:48:11 (EDT)
Comments: Wow! Beautiful site! Thanks for linking to me...I finally updated my links page. All the best.
  Visitor: Jen
Reference: computer
 Location: south US
 Web Info: 
     Date: Tuesday, May 04, 1999 at 13:39:52 (EDT)
Comments: Hey. i like your poetry. l8r
  Visitor: Gaétan 
Reference: alt.binaries.animated.gifs
 Location: montréal Canada
  WebSite: i don't have
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sun, May 02, 1999 at 23:23:56 (EDT)
Comments: I would realy love to have my name sign in animeted gif With pen or brush Thank you Gaétan
  Visitor: Jean
Reference: researching child abuse
 Location: Florida
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
     Date: Sat, May 01, 1999 at 14:31:50 (EDT)
Comments: Wow. While reseaching child abuse, came across your site. I am a social worker and work with children who have been mentally, physically, sexually and emotional abused. It can be very depressing but when I read your history, it brought me hope. I always wonder what happens to these children when they grow up. It's good to know that there can be a light at the end of a very dark tunnel. Just pray that more people will call the abuse hot line 1-800-96-ABUSE when they suspect children are being harmed. You are to be congratulated on your good work and hopefully will help other survivors of abuse.

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