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September through October, 1999

  Visitor: SleepyHead
Reference: from a LOTH sister whose anniversary is tomorrow
 Location: Louisiana
  WebSite: In Memory of Robby
 Web Info: a memorial in honour of my beloved infant
  Contact: rened5@yahoo.com
     Date: Sat, Oct 30, 1999 at 13:24:45 (EDT)
Comments: GhostWolf--I have been sitting here for hours, battling fatigue, tears, and CompuServe, reading your horror story. No, I did not read it for kicks--I wanna go puke, and then I wanna beat the living hell out of all the people who ever hurt you or any other of God's children. There are no words I can offer to ease your pain, or the aches of other abused children out there. I, too, was abused, and it was incestual in nature. But I never went through the hell you have lived through. I gotta tell you, tho, that Satan still lives in the eyes of both your mother and Rachel. I pray that as Peggy lives in whatever world she now inhabits that her only experiences are happy cheerful ones. I want to rage to God, and ask Him how in the name of all that is holy could He have allowed you babies to be put through the fires of hell you went through. I know He loves us, and doesn't will for us to live in these pits, but I still sometimes wonder why. Then, I see that there are others out there who need to hear your story, that need to feel your pain, and know that they are not aberrations, and they are entitled to their hate, their feelings. GhostWolf, be a ghost no longer, but be the Heart of the Wolf--forever you will be to me, not GhostWolf, but WolfHeart---he who possesses the heart of the wolf and nurtures his children...
  Visitor: Dove
Reference: AAR
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     Date: Thurs, Oct 28, 1999 at 02:32:44 (EDT)
Comments: I found your site very informative and down to earth, and it brought back many sad memories. Memories that nobody should ever have. I'm new to recovery, having failed at pushing the past away, am now trying to confront it. I wish you peace and thank you for creating these pages. Leslie
  Visitor: Kenya M. Tate
Reference: Using a searh engine
 Location: South Carolina
  WebSite: None
 Web Info: 
  Contact: Kenya.Tate@adidasus.com
     Date: Wed, Oct 27, 1999 at 11:04:23 (EDT)
Comments: I am very happy that you have decided not to continue the cycle of abuse. I will pray for you in your continuing recovery and I hope that your web site helps someone that may be in the situation you described so vividly in your biography. Forgiveness is an ongoing and everyday process.
  Visitor: Dan
Reference: A.A.R
 Location: Michigan
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: bigmagic@modempool.com
     Date: Mon, Oct 25, 1999 at 21:53:59 (EDT)
Comments: After I looked at your pictures my head was flooded with memories of my own childhood. The one that bothers me the most is the one where you mother is looking out the window to make sure you don't do anything wrong. I'm sure that if you looked at her she would have given you that,thats right I'm watching you so you better not fuck up look. I remember that feeling of being watched so carefully. I am really having difficulty writing this right now. I have been in recovery for nine years now and sometimes I actually feel like I am making progress, but when I see pictures like that everything comes back to me so quickly. It is a constant reminder that I may never be a totally whole person. Don't get me wrong I have done a lot of work toward my recovery. It's just that, well you know, how it all seems to get back to you at one time or another. I am new to the AAR group and I have been reading some of your responses to postings. I see you have a gift for profound insight. I will look forward to reading more of your postings. I really like this website you have created. You've done a great job putting it together. Keep up the good work. Well I would love to stay and write some more more however, I don't want this to turn into a novel nor do I want to bore you to death. Take care of yourself, and I hope peace finds your heart. Dan
  Visitor: Mickey Johnson
Reference: Yahoo.com Search engine
 Location: Brewton Alabama
  WebSite: MICKEY JOHNSON's POETRY PAGE
 Web Info: Original poetry with a message of hope for humankind's future from he who dwells in the endless abyss of dreams called eternity. -Mickey Johnson
  Contact: mickeylearn@yahoo.com
     Date: Mon, Oct 25, 1999 at 13:57:54 (EDT)
Comments: I really love and identify with your poem America. I could not continue to read more of your poetry before I complemented you on this one. I am going to be adding a links page to my site in a matter of days, a page dedicated to poets who I consider special, so I wanted to see if you would mind if I included a link to your wonderful poetry.
  Visitor: ~Tasha~
Reference: been here before.
 Location: usa
  WebSite: Tasha's Spot
 Web Info: 
  Contact: 
     Date: Sun, Oct 24, 1999 at 23:10:27 (EDT)
Comments: do you write poetry? come post it here!!
Arcanum
  Visitor: Cheri Contreras
Reference: Wolf Art
 Location: Washington
  WebSite: Threads of Light
 Web Info: 
  Contact: netfisher@nwi.net
     Date: Fri, Oct 22, 1999 at 13:14:40 (EDT)
Comments: I have some Cherokee Indian in me and I'm always wanting to learn more about indians and the cultures. I have always wanted to know about Ghost Wolf.
  Visitor: Kaye
Reference: From another guestbook
 Location: Oregon Coast USA
  WebSite: Kaye's Homepage
 Web Info: A place where people can meet me and my family and kinda see where and what kind of people we are.
  Contact: okay60@hotmail.com
     Date: Wed, Oct 20, 1999 at 10:54:03 (EDT)
Comments:

Home

Hi, I dropped by after visiting Charlotte's Web...because she had visited me...and read what you had wrote in her book and thought he sounds like a peaceful nice person lets go there :-) so here I am...I enjoyed meeting you and your wife and family on your pages...feel free to stop by mine.


  Visitor: Charlotte
Reference: Looking for Native American Sites
 Location: Tennessee
  WebSite: Charlotte' Web
 Web Info: It's in the work,in time you will find many pages on difference subjests.
  Contact: cswaw@hotmail.com
     Date: Tuesday, Oct 19, 1999 at 17:14:27 (EDT)
Comments: You have made a great site. The information found here we all need to know. We need to know theirs live after. Please the site open.
  Visitor: Robert
Reference: on your car
 Location: SF
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     Date: Mon, Oct 18, 1999 at 21:11:14 (EDT)
Comments: Good luck in your journey. These pages made me stop and look at my own life, and my Family. You have made me sad, but grateful Thank you robert
  Visitor: Silenced
Reference: web search on incest
 Location: America - dont' want to say where
  WebSite: I don't have one
 Web Info: 
  Contact: silenced@deja.com
     Date: Mon, Oct 18, 1999 at 12:50:43 (EDT)
Comments: GhostWolf, thank you for writing your pages and talking about what happened. I've got to be very careful, because my parents are real web and net savvy; my dad works for a very large computer firm, and he's one of my abusers. I've adapted something I found on one of your link pages and added some of my own stuff, and posted that to a lot of survivor and education groups; you've probably already seen it - Why we don't talk. Someone emailed me back with a URL you might want to use for your resource links; http://www.stopitnow.com. Thanks for showing me and my friends that we aren't bad and that we didn't ask for it. Silenced
  Visitor: Willena Jennings
Reference: Search Engine - Incest
 Location: Rohnert Park California
  WebSite: Herbs and Things
 Web Info: A site made for a college corse.
  Contact: willena@sonic.net
     Date: Sat, Oct 16, 1999 at 01:58:36 (EDT)
Comments: Greetings Ghost Wolf, I am also an incest survivor. I was unable to even admit that I had an unhappy childhood until I was 41. I've been in thearipy for 3 yrs now. My story is not as bad as yours, but your attitude about what happened to you helped me to find the strength continue the healing process. Thank you. Willena Jennings
  Visitor: Larry Ray Stewart
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     Date: Tuesday, Oct 12, 1999 at 23:19:17 (EDT)
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  Visitor: Just_Me_G
Reference: link from another site
 Location: My mom but rumor has it I was hatched..lol!
  WebSite: Don't have one yet
 Web Info: 
  Contact: Lady_of_Honor@yahoo.com
     Date: Tuesday, Oct 12, 1999 at 02:10:04 (EDT)
Comments: I would like to thank you for both your courage and your strength!! Bravo!! A well written biography.
  Visitor: jubal bear
Reference: in search of support groups
 Location: portland,oregon,currently in alaska
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
  Contact: jubalt@hotmail.com
     Date: Mon, Oct 11, 1999 at 01:03:48 (EDT)
Comments: thank you for putting energy into getting good words out to others so that they may heal and grow. the great spirit is at your shoulder always. peace
  Visitor: Carolyn
Reference: surfing
 Location: Maryland
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: khaki44@aol.com
     Date: Sun, Oct 10, 1999 at 13:00:46 (EDT)
Comments: Ended up at your site while searching to find ways to help friends who are victims of abuse.Further interested because of my Native American background and love of wolves.But your history, your story was much more than I bargained for. First, I had no idea that such organized and far ranging cults existed. Secondly, I am weak with pain for what you and the other children have experience.Third, my heart is aching for children who right now might be going through such atrocities.I am stunned.I cannot take it all in at one reading. Your story must get out so that people can be made aware! What can people do to help these children? You are indeed a testament to the strength of the human spirit, and the spirit of the wolf.I would be interested to know what religious, spiritual inclinations you now have.
  Visitor: Rhonda Sanford
Reference: cult look
 Location: Buena Vista ,GA
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: none
  Contact: rsanford@soweganet.com
     Date: Fri, Oct 08, 1999 at 11:55:45 (EDT)
Comments: I WAS TRYING TO FIND OUT IF SDA WAS AN CULT GROUP
  Visitor: pamela Jean O'Keefe
Reference: i stumbled across it
 Location: im argenly from conn and i moved to iowa in sept 
  WebSite: none yet.
 Web Info: well if i did have one i would call it danceing with wolves.
  Contact: linaer_angel_69_1999@yahoo.com
     Date: Mon, Oct 04, 1999 at 03:43:08 (EDT)
Comments: i have read your life history and it sounds just like mine. my stepgrangfather malested me when i was 5 years old and my cousins too. now he is dead i can get on with my life. im 28 years old and i have one son that well he lives with his grandparents right now till i can take care of him. when i do have my home page set up i will e-mail u. bye for now and good luck.
  Visitor: THOMAS VAN GILLESPIE
Reference: HUNTING  THE WEB
 Location: SOUTHERN CA.
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: THOMAS_VAN@MSN.COM
     Date: Fri, Oct 01, 1999 at 02:35:39 (EDT)
Comments: I REJOICE IN FINDING FELLOW SURVIVORS WHO UNDERSTAND.... MY PURPOSE IN LIFE IS TO EDUCATE PEOPLE AND TO LIFT UP VICTIMS OF RA TO THAT WHICH IS ABOVE AND BEYOND SURVIVOR.... UNTO WARRIOR FOR YOU AND I AS TRUE CITIZENS OF THE UNITED STATES FACE A MOST ABOMINABLE DOMESTIC ENEMY. IN THIS WAR A GUN OR A BOMB IS OF NO USE.. OUR WEAPON OF CHOICE.... THE TWO EDGED SWORD OF TRUTH.
  Visitor: Bruce
Reference: previous link
 Location: Australia
  WebSite: IT REALLY IS OK TO TALK ABOUT IT
 Web Info: A site listing numerous links and my own battle with PTSD
  Contact: bpollard@hotkey.net.au
     Date: Thurs, Sep 30, 1999 at 08:14:17 (EDT)
Comments:
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It took me literally weeks to work my way through the site, but I took your advice and a little at a time, and it was worth every bit of it. Thanks Bruce.
  Visitor: Traci
Reference: netscape 
 Location: jax, fl
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: whitleyt@carfinance.com
     Date: Tuesday, Sep 28, 1999 at 11:51:30 (EDT)
Comments: Tour survival is a blessing/many prayers for you and your family
  Visitor: Crystal Caseboldt
Reference: Searching Child Abuse Webs
 Location: Oklahoma
  WebSite: 
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     Date: Mon, Sep 27, 1999 at 13:24:26 (EDT)
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  Visitor: Robert D. Silvera
Reference: Link
 Location: Virginia Beach
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  Contact: asabove@ddaccess.net
     Date: Mon, Sep 27, 1999 at 00:29:29 (EDT)
Comments: Your poetry is good. Because someone calls me a failer dos'nt mean it's true I know I am not. It dos'nt matter. I have come to realise the people who judge others are doing it to cover up their own misdeeds. I wish you the best of everything. Robert
  Visitor: karen 
Reference: i was looking for information re: sexual abuse from the survivor perspective
 Location: st. louis, mo
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  Contact: nilegodess@AOL.com
     Date: Sun, Sep 26, 1999 at 23:44:40 (EDT)
Comments: It is difficult for me to put into words the feelings I experienced while reading your life story. As a social worker, I felt anger/hatred toward the people who hurt you, disgust at the system that failed to protect you, and genuine sorrow for what you have lived through. But I rejoice in the fact that you could empower yourself and transcend the evil you were subjected to. As a trainer of foster/adoptive parents, it is imperative that I make them understand the pain abused children suffer, and instill in them the drive to help children heal and know there is safety, warmth and love in the world. Thank you for sharing this painful story from which others will learn... some child out there may be saved because we are watching.
  Visitor: Arthur Cunningham
Reference: Searching for history of the Souix Nation
 Location: Larkhall, Scotland
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: 
  Contact: Arthur@broomfield36.freeserve.co.uk
     Date: Sat, Sep 25, 1999 at 15:57:20 (EDT)
Comments: Without love we could not survive. Human beings are social creatures, and a concern for each other is the very basis our life together. These are the Dalai Lama's words.
  Visitor: Mike Marr
Reference: A Unicorn sent me
 Location: Pennsylvannia
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  Contact: mikemarr@mail.mlynk.com
     Date: Fri, Sep 24, 1999 at 12:30:35 (EDT)
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  Visitor: Laura
Reference: 
 Location: Toronto
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: midnight_canada@Hotmail.com
     Date: Wed, Sep 22, 1999 at 17:59:03 (EDT)
Comments: Ive visited your site few times now. I have had a rough life myself over the years, I learnt at a very young age though, that no matter how little you have....another has less... No matter how much u suffered....another has suffered more. We are both survivors in our own way. Thank you for sharing your life with us all, and im happy you found someone to love and trust.
  Visitor: Aj/MoonWolf
Reference: Have you bookmarked!
 Location: Idaho
  WebSite: Jericho~MoonWolf's Haven
 Web Info: My site is dedicated to saving our wolves and for the love of my Wolfdog..
  Contact: jericho@cyberhighway.net
     Date: Tuesday, Sep 21, 1999 at 13:46:31 (EDT)
Comments: It has been a very long time My Wolf Brother since I traveled amoung your pages. I am so very glad to see you are still with us & continue to share your story and fight your fight. Your site is an inspiration to all and your beauty shines thru..Be well and always walk with Peace, Beauty & Light..

  Visitor: Aj/MoonWolf
Reference: Have you bookmarked!
 Location: Idaho
  WebSite: Jericho~MoonWolf's Haven
 Web Info: My site is dedicated to saving our wolves and for the love of my Wolfdog..
  Contact: jericho@cyberhighway.net
     Date: Tuesday, Sep 21, 1999 at 13:45:27 (EDT)
Comments: It has been a very long time My Wolf Brother since I traveled amoung your pages. I am so very glad to see you are still with us & continue to share your story and fight your fight. Your site is an inspiration to all and your beauty shines thru..Be well and always walk with Peace, Beauty & Light..

  Visitor: Crystal Wayne
Reference: just looking through web sites
 Location: Denton Texas
  WebSite: 
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  Contact: Canyou777@aol.com
     Date: Fri, Sep 17, 1999 at 02:45:20 (EDT)
Comments: Thank you for your web site. I have enjoyed looking through it. Also thank you for putting in the information about wolves. I have always felt attached to them and love to learn more about them. I hope that you have found the peace you need and the love you need and deserve. God love you and keep you. Crystal Wayne
  Visitor: Glormae
Reference: NG/Alt.Abuse
 Location: TEXAS
  WebSite: N/A: new to net,teaching myself :0
 Web Info: N/A  I hope to make one on my life of 32 homes as ward of state and to have a place for others like me!
  Contact: Glormae@aol.com
     Date: Fri, Sep 17, 1999 at 01:30:43 (EDT)
Comments: WOW! What can I say! Never been to a place like this, just got here and I know I will be up here awhile,thank you and your wife for linking and sharing with me;it helps me and make me glad,gonna go now and see the rest, can't wait! What a thrill!!!! Your talents are outstanding,I don't know alot about net right now bit am good learner, know a thing(one or so) about art though, worked with an ANTARSIA ARTIST making print books(by hand) and got to watch her at work. It was one of the most rewarding times of my life to be able to see such skill, I see it here also! Great Work!
  Visitor: Louis H.   Behr
Reference: Exploring the internet
 Location: Phila., PA
  WebSite: 
 Web Info: 
  Contact: BEHRFAMILY@954ACCESS.NET
     Date: Thurs, Sep 16, 1999 at 17:29:00 (EDT)
Comments: Thank g d you made it through and have someone that cares about you. So sorry to read about your oldest sister.
  Visitor: Louis H.   Behr
Reference: Exploring the internet
 Location: Phila., PA
  WebSite: 
 Web Info: 
  Contact: 
     Date: Thurs, Sep 16, 1999 at 17:27:22 (EDT)
Comments:
  Visitor: lyne*aka*paradise
Reference: from one of your friends
 Location: RAOK
  WebSite: lyne's spot on the web!
 Web Info: 
  Contact: 
     Date: Thurs, Sep 16, 1999 at 10:14:22 (EDT)
Comments:
Have the most wonderful day ever!!!!
  Visitor: Lynn Wright
Reference: Im on the Ng as you AAR
 Location: Cambridgeshire UK
  WebSite: Havent got one sorry
 Web Info: 
  Contact: lynnwright@cix.co.uk
     Date: Mon, Sep 13, 1999 at 22:03:54 (EDT)
Comments: Thanks for interesting site, talk to you soon on AAR I'm nearly at the end of Open University Exam time (Oct) then I will be back in AAR (aka lindsey) Lynn
  Visitor: John
Reference: From another site condemming child abuse.
 Location: Australia
  WebSite: Positive Steps
 Web Info: A site devoted to helping others through Positive Thinking.
  Contact: john@positivesteps.zzn.com
     Date: Sun, Sep 12, 1999 at 01:16:59 (EDT)
Comments: Thank you for sharing your life with us all. I hope you give others the courage to speak out against child abuse. It is a very important step in the healing process. Thank you again. Fondest regards. John
  Visitor: Sandy
Reference: newsgroup
 Location: Texas
  WebSite: none
 Web Info: none
  Contact: Gsandy
     Date: Sun, Sep 05, 1999 at 11:16:33 (EDT)
Comments: I do not know what to say, I am only half way thru your site and am so blown away, when I read 'you can not put a bandaid on a broken bone,it made so much sense, it is wonderful to know that someone understands, it really does hurt to keep it in. Thank you for what you have done for me. Sandy
  Visitor: Fran E. Valenta
Reference: return visit
 Location: Wrightsville, Pa 17368
  WebSite: FranApple for abused children
 Web Info: healing from abuse
  Contact: franvalen@aol.com
     Date: Sun, Sep 05, 1999 at 11:10:21 (EDT)
Comments: Just coming back to see what might be new As always you give renewed strength to all who view your recovery. Fran
  Visitor: Stella
Reference: a link from other page
 Location: germany
  WebSite: Paths into the light
 Web Info: its about us, with arts, our story and fairytales in german and english
  Contact: system1@gmx.net
     Date: Sat, Sep 04, 1999 at 17:27:19 (EDT)
Comments: Hello saw your arts. i am not often outside. i care for the lils and sometimes paint. but another of us went to your side and i saw your arts from inside and came out. thank you for sharing. Stella
  Visitor: Starshine
Reference: another's guest book
 Location: Sydney,  New South Wales, Australia
  WebSite: Welcome to Starshine's page
 Web Info: mixed bag of favourite stuff
  Contact: mmcdonal@eagles.com.au
     Date: Thurs, Sep 02, 1999 at 08:05:36 (EDT)
I just dropped by to say hello.
I have enjoyed my visit.
You have wonderful pages. Keep up the good work
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Comments:
  Visitor: tribble
Reference: the final find was prism's links
 Location: the great white north 
  WebSite: the fantabulous pages of tribble
 Web Info: just another abuse/survivor site
  Contact: tribble@asarian-host.org
     Date: Thurs, Sep 02, 1999 at 03:35:39 (EDT)
Comments: what can i say gw? every time i read your pages i'm blown over by your strength, courage and caring. i wish for all the world that you didn't experience what you did..but wishing won't make it go away :( but i'm glad you're around. take care of yourself...tribbs
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